2016 book list

This seems to have been a year of series. Here's here were my reads for the year and a little outtake about each one. ..well sort of. I don't know if "just had to see what happens next" totally qualifies but that's ok :).
Also, I discovered the Overdrive App last month. Pretty handy little deal!

1.The Dating Manifesto- Lisa Anderson
        A humorous take on dating as an older single person. Related and enjoyed the quick read.

2. Speaking of Jesus-Carl Mederias
        Thought provoking and a real mindset challenger. A reminder of what it means to truly speak of Jesus and communicate well of Him.

3. Boundaries in Dating- Dr. Henry Cloud
        Not quite as frustrating to me as when I first tried to read this book at 22. I picked it up as a   challenge to myself and found it still not my favorite book but it held some good points.

4. Voice in the Wind- Francine Rivers
        A long time favorite series that I hadn't touched in probably ten years. If you haven't read them I recommend them!

5. The Myth of a Christian Nation- Greg Boyd
        Extremely fitting with this being an election year. This book gave me a fresh hope and reminder that the advancement of the Kingdom of God doesn't lie in the governments of men.

6. Echo in the Darkness- Francine Rivers
        Second of the favorites. Remembering again why I loved the character of Haddassah. I think that these books hit home in a fresh way as I looked at the culture of Rome and Ephesus and found assurance that God can take broken nations and turn their hearts toward Him.

7. Sure as the Dawn- Francine Rivers
        And he takes broken people individually and turns their hearts towards Himself which is what  turns the nations.

8. The Power of Full Engagement- Jim Loehr and Tony Schwartz
         One big take away reminder is the importance of planning intentional breaks into ones day because it actually will cause a person to be more productive (and creative!)

9. Exile- Rachel Starr Thomson
        A new enjoyable author discovery. A fascinating illustration of the unity of the body of Christ    and the war we wrestle which is not against flesh and blood.

10. Hive- Rachel Starr Thomson
         The second in the series, painting a picture of the depth of depravity that bitterness causes and  the power of prayer.

11. Renegade- Rachel Starr Thomson
           Was listening to the song "Renegade" while i was reading this book and pondering the word. What do you think of when you hear it?

12. Attack- Rachel Starr Thomson
          Just had to find out what happened next...

13. Rise- Rachel Starr Thomson
          This quote really spoke to me : "He [God] is not [the author of confusion]. Our own hearts and minds are sources of confusion and apt to be stirred up when the Spirit begins to speak truth. If we listen, the truth will clear up our mud puddles again. But it is not very comfortable or clear in the mean time." pg. 47

14. The Person Called You- Bill Hendricks
           A thoughtful read regarding giftedness and how to actually implement who God has created you to be in your work and life. (I'm still chewing on this book months later...that's a good read.)

15. World's unseen- Rachel Starr Thomson
          A little too sci-fi for me but interesting enough to read. Not interesting enough to spend money on the sequels.

16. The Color of Your Skin Ain't the Color of Your Heart- Michael Phillips
         A lighter read when it comes to Michael Phillips writing. I enjoyed the overall story.

17. Together is All We Need- Michael Phillips
       The final book in the series of four books. Everything got tied up in a pretty bow.

18. Forbidden- Ted Dekker and Tosca Lee
       Mindy introduced me to the Library App...Oh boy. This could be good or not good depending on how you look at it! Enjoying some goodies like this Ted Dekker, I have to say though his obsession with the blood is interesting. I'm curious what happens next so probably the next book on my list will wind up being Mortal..the next in the series. Except there are a couple of other books I'd like to read as well. So I may be reading more than one at once.

19. Mortal- Ted Dekker and Tosca Lee
        Totally continued right on reading. Not a lot to say, except if you like Dekker and you haven't read them then it's time to pick one up and give these a go.

20. Sovereign-Ted Dekker and Tosca Lee
        I love that Dekker has the ability to bring scriptures to life in a way that you get to SEE.

Books in Process:
 Do Over- Jon Acuff
Growing in Prayer- Mike Bickle
Iscariot- Tosca Lee

The long road home.

Week 52. A year ago we began, Carrie and I, on this journey of being thankful each week for something not often thought about in our lives. Did it change me? I suppose in some subtle ways it did. I feel changed from one year ago, I don't know that this blogging challenge was necessarily what has brought about change-or even whether it's even been a very large catalyst for change. However, I would say that it was beneficial for me to pull me through the season of mild depression I was in a year ago. Thankfulness does that, it really changes your perspective. I try to be thankful more often than just on Thursdays.
There are some things I have learned on this journey though....
Sometimes I don't want to write.
Sometimes I don't want to think about the topic in front of me.
Both are an excellent exercise of pressing and choosing. Sometimes..you do things even when you just don't feel like it.
My life became busier over the last six months and writing became less of a priority. But that was ok. The reason I kept blogging was to stay vulnerable in some way and not shut down to the entire world My life began to fill back up with people with which I could reestablish vulnerability and I suppose present people are a better platform than a blog.
The early posts of my blog I put much thought into, I'd ponder the topic all week and then write. As the challenge became more routine I didn't chew on the topic for nearly as long.
I do think this challenge was about intentionality. It's difficult to be intentional about something for an entire year. Particularly when you feel like the goal was accomplished midway (vulnerability). But it was about the only thing I had going on in my life that I'd committed to do because I was in such a season of rest and saying no.
A totally different season has come and I'm having to say no, but for entirely an different reason. To keep my heart in a place of rest- yes..but also to not over commit.
I love the Fall because it's always a time for new beginnings. If you haven't already done so, take some time and ask the Lord-what does the Fall look like for you and me Jesus? Am I in a place where I am abiding or am I in a place where I am so busy that my heart is restless and I don't know what to focus on? If you find yourself in the second...lean in. Say no to some of the good things so you can say yes to the great things...
I am going to keep this blog up. It is more of a "good" thing than a "great" thing. So it may be dormant for a while as my heart has been learning how to come home. Thanks for taking time to go on this journey with me.

100 things.....is a lot.

Well, in some ways I am winning at the #dosummer2016. I'm crossing off a lot of 15 minute increments-I'm going to stick it out until the end of summer, but I'm kind of feeling like my intentionality is a little vague..I have learned a new painting techniques, listened to a lot of Dave Ramsey Pod Casts...and oh by the way..Friday is the last run until Katrina and I are officially 5K runners...but what am I accomplishing really?
I've been thinking about this Fall and how there are a lot of other goals I'd like to accomplish, but some seem so daunting I don't even know where to start-so I decided to join in on the 30 Day Hustle and see what happens! I'd love to have someone join me in the journey-so if that someone is you, let me know! (Click the link to see what it is...)

And now onto 100 things I am thankful for...

1. The sun is shining and its HOT.
2. Window screens
3. Sheriff's who take care of other people's trash (AKA cars that are run into telephone poles on your land in the night)
4. Blackberries grow in the wild here.
5. I can read.
6. Sushi.
7. Late night roof top meteor shower shows with my sisters.
8. The person who invented ice cream.
9. A flexible work schedule.
10. The YNAB budget program (check it out, it's SO handy...this is not a paid advertisement..just me telling you about it of my own free will.)

11. Fly swatters
12. Left over salmon from dinner last night-about to have it for lunch.
13. A clothesline in my backyard
14. I have a backyard.
15. YWAM friday nights
16. Essential Oils (current faves- digest zen and breathe)
17. Looking forward to camping trips
18. An A/C unit on a hot day.
19. Mom and Dad have a pool.
20. Telephones, and the convenience of the world wide web.

21. Hummus
22. Applesauce
23. Pickles
24. Almond milk
25. iced coffee
26. Ground beef
27. Sweet potatoes
28. Chips (I just love crunchy..salty..)
29. Ice Cream..Its hard to say no
30. Nut butter

31. My hammock
32. Sleeping in my hammock on a hot night.
33. My car drives though it needs some work.
34. Found a dress for Renae's wedding
35. books, books and more books.
36. This computer of mine..officially on year #8. Yup. What gift!
37. Dreams-love when they are encouraging!
38. Elephants
39. The zoo
40. And the fact that I have a pass this year, need to get over there and use it again!

41. Brooke
42. Shawnie
43. Shana
44. Carrie
45. Wesley
46. Chad
47. Autumn
48. Grace
49. Carla
50. Roman

51. The way the people listed above impacted my walk with the Lord early on and ran with me hard after Him, challenging me constantly.
52. I keep thinking tomorrow is Sunday, but its actually only Saturday! (yes I am working on this and it's NOT Thursday..but I actually did start it on Thursday...100 things is just a lot to jot down all at once. I'll probably not finish it all tonight.)
53. Blackberries growing in the wild.  Can you believe I had to buy them in the store in Colorado...
54. I have this canner..not that I know how to use it....
55. A whole day that was kept unplanned..on purpose.
56. Elbows-imagine if we had straight arms.
57. Typing-this list would take forever in writing.
58. Google maps.
59. Creativity.
60. Ducks.

61. Backpacks
62. Craigslist
63. Baby kale= good smoothies
64. Diana- thanks for always making my hair look good.
65. The Mark of the Lion Series
66. Learning how to paint
67. My elephant tank top
68. Comfy clothes (especially my thai pants)
69. Hanging out with Shana tomorrow
70. A roof over my head.

71. Jesse cut some wood
72. We can haul it to have firewood this winter!
73. Pears, pears and more pears..come pick some.
74. The Holy Ghost.
75. Danielle Walker's cookbooks
76. Board games
77. People who can play instruments
78. Fantastic, peaceful worship last night.
79. Airplanes.
80. It wasn't too hot in my room last night.

81. There is cold coffee in the fridge..gonna go get me some.
82. Bible study and reading in my hammock
83. I'm almost to the end of this list.
84. Tissues for when I sneeze.
85. I sneeze far less frequently these days.
86. We have one stack of firewood complete...hopefully we can gat another 5 or 6 more done!
87. 7 incredible, challenging years in Denver.
88. I am no longer afraid to tell people about the amazing love of Jesus.
89. Great parents
90. Lots of extra parents.

91. Meat thermometers
92. Crock pots
93. Puzzles
94. No Debt.
95. Freedom to give.
96. Ten fingers, ten toes, a nose, two eyes and a mouth..plus two ears.
97.  I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
98. Garage sales
99. Chickens and cows-they sure are tasty.
100. And of course, saving the best for last. Jesus.

That's all..that's a lot. what are YOU thankful for?

Entertainment..Entertaining...An invitation.

As a young teen I looked forward to the local county fair every year. It was the highlight of summer..a place to celebrate my birthday. This year I've driven past it a few times and wondered what my draw to it was-I probably just need to get in touch with my inner kid and take a ride on the ferris wheel or something to remind myself of what I used to love? I'm not sure  I could stomach the Hammerheads or Zipper or what have you any more!
The things that entertain us do change as the seasons of our lives change. A lot of people require more entertainment-I find I typically have required less. Quite thankful for that shift. Generally in our culture when we consider entertainment it's the act of amusing yourself to the point of forgetting the cares of the day. Or even to cover up the lack of a sense of purpose. At least thats my estimation of the "purpose" of entertainment.
I want to say I am a person who runs to Jesus as a source of being able to lay aside the cares of the day. Sometimes I do..sometimes I don't. Many times I bury my head in a book, watch a movie, preoccupy myself..instead hiding my heart in the Lord.
On the other end of entertainment-it can also be thought of as another word for hospitality...and of that, I can say I'd hope to extend the invitation into my home and heart. I'm so thankful for those who take the time to come on in and sit a while. That some one would step into my home and forget momentarily about the cares of their life and enjoy a moment of rest- this is a great form of entertainment, and I hope it would be that they would find themselves sitting at the feet of Jesus.

Thankful Thursday (that's once again not on Thursday) week 50. Two more posts and then I need to decide..do I keep writing? What do you think?

A little this and that. Week 48 & 49 of the gratitude challenge...

The gratitude challenge is winding down and I have been slacking-big time. Ok, maybe not BIG time just behind on the "my current age" and "the weather". Neither are what I would have anticipated..
It's August of my 34th year, and it's raining. And I am single, living in WA, and still on the journey of "what am I doing with my life"...different than I expected-quite.

Now for the thankful part about the above.
The best thing about this weird weather is that in spite of my lack of time available to go and water my garden-it still lives. And also, when I am stuck inside I don't feel like I am missing out on summer passing me by as I stare at it out the window. I've still spent a good amount of time out in my hammock, sat by a good number of camp fires, and worn my sandals. Plus...it's definitely better weather for running.

As for being 34, I've just a few days left of that. It's been a year of rediscovery, of resurrecting dreams and of major changes. There are a lot of unanswered prayers, but I am healthy and feeling alive again.

Side note- #dosummer2016 is going pretty well. I've kept up with the Couch to 5k training and haven't had any crashes physically- so stoked on that.
Painting-I've not devoted as much time as I had hoped..but here is the current project. The beginning of the backdrop for youth camp. I actually have more done on it, but this is the last picture I took.

And as far as the pursuit of teaching/coaching..that one is getting a lot more attention because I happen to have a long drive twice a day and often spend time listening to podcasts.
That's it for now. Just a couple more posts to this challenge.

On the other side of the door....

Once a week I filed papers in the accounting office as a Phase II (Leadership training) student. It was always a fun couple of hours. I got to know the YWAM staff who worked in the office and really enjoyed learning bits and pieces of how it all worked from a financial stand point. When I went through with my staff interview and was officially joining the team after the training was finished, almost immediately I was approached by the department director, Cary. He asked me if I would like to work in the accounting office. I don't fully remember the conversation, just that I told him I'd be willing to try it out. You guys- I was the day care girl, reading teacher, nanny, camp counselor...not exactly qualifications for an accounting office!
I am SO thankful that Cary saw in me something that I didn't see in myself and gave me an opportunity to learn from the ground up. In the process I discovered a few things:
1. I love budgets
2. Problem solving is fun to me..
3. #'s are easier than people because they have to eventually add up.
4. I like to have tasks, but I also like to be interrupted in the those tasks with either more urgent tasks, peoples questions or some other thing..like hearing someone's story about their day.

Often the opportunities we are given are doors to new adventures that we would never know we would enjoy if we didn't take the risk and step through into the unknown.
I can't tell Cary any more how much I appreciate the door he invited me through, he's been with Jesus for several years..but I'll say it anyway..Thanks Cary.
And thanks Josh..my accounting team mate who taught me everything for the day to day..and Nathan for teaching me even more...and Sarah and Clara for letting me pass on to you everything that I learned.

No longer am I the nanny, teacher, daycare girl..I still like kids though..so I am really thankful that since my job now is in a home I get my interruptions from four cute kiddos who come in to ask for the scissors, the tape, a paper clip..you name it..or they just come in to tell me about their day-sometimes I get to see the latest photos from the weekend, or we take a few minutes to set up a science experiment in the middle of the office.
Because of the opportunities I had in YWAM to learn quickbooks and basic accounting skills I now have a great job for a local company. I know it's just a stepping stone toward more things in the future as I would love to become a financial coach and put three things I love most together: discipleship, budgeting and hospitality (yes, we will talk about your budget over coffee in some comfortable chairs). But in the mean time I am filled with gratitude for what I am doing now.
What door did YOU step through that led to more than you could have thought?

"I love technology..." -Kip.

Think back to life..without your cell phone. Do you know anyone any more that doesn't have one? Remember when the norm was calling someones house phone and hoping they were there to pick it up?
I got my first cell phone right out of high school, a graduation gift I think? It was a trusty little Nokia. No texting. Just some basic calling-but boy did I feel connected. :). A few years later I moved and lived on the East Coast where a cell phone hardly ever worked (and lets just be honest...they still really don't there.) So, I went back to the land line.
Sometimes I miss the good old days.
But most days, I am really thankful to be able to at the push of a button call friends, family..see photos, read blogs, check email (wow another phenomenon..remember when we had to use pen and paper and wait for weeks at a time? Still love those snail mail letters..and then remember when dial up just for email came around? And then AOL online..haha.) ..anyway, now we do it all on a little tiny square.
Technology. We live in an incredible time of high connectedness.
But I still love when I unplug.
Good night.

Post of the week...thankful for the many things I enjoy...

Spending time in the great outdoors
Under the trees in my hammock with a book
Mountain hikes
Making something new-be it crafting or food.
Evening volleyball
Relaxing by a body of water (sometimes dunking in to get wet)

Fellowship with friends
Using my brushes on canvas, or wood or walls....
Noting prayers and musings in my journal

Art...mostly painting, sometimes crafting.
Night time campfires.
Driving into the mountains

Board games...on the lawn... on a board
Eating out on the town-enthic foods are the most fun
Yard games
Ocean visits
Nephew and neice time :) (zoo dates coming right up..or for Jace a "zoo hang out" he didn't think going on a date with me sounded fun.
Daydreaming and praying and taking action for dreams to become reality.

The beginning...not the end.
What do you do for fun?

Doing Summer.

Summer inspires me every year. I find more motivation in the summer time to pursue things- I think partially because I come home and still have hours of daylight left. 

A month ago or so I had someone ask me what kind of plans I had for the summer. At the time my only answer was "I have a few friends coming into town." Which may not have seemed like much of an answer... but in someways it was a big answer. However, I also hadn't considered what I was doing in the other parts of the summer.  

Having a few friends coming to town is a big answer-because I get to be hospitable. It delights my very soul. Sarah was here last week and we had a wonderfully fun, but short, week. Mary comes this weekend for a few days so more hospitality coming right up :).
Anyway-this week has been inspirational and I've been spurred me to do something about my previous post regarding hobbies. I was challenged by a quote recently that posted in a friend's shop on the wall- a reminder that to actually get good at something is hard work. I'm excited to be in a new season, one where I am healthy enough to set some goals..to believe again that I can accomplish some new things! This is so exciting!
Last summer started that way..I planted my garden and started Crossfit. That was all I had in me..and the Crossfit nearly knocked me out. See, when I do set a goal I often forget to rest. This time..I am setting some goals and asking the Lord for wisdom and grace to remember to rest and refresh. Having a garden and doing Crossfit were two restful things, but in my state of being I needed to do less (ugh!) than what I was doing. Gardening stayed restful and bountiful produce was the result.

So...two nights ago Jesse (my brother) told me about #dosummer2016 (my first official hashtag you guys and I don't even know if it works for blogs..haha). Anyway-I downloaded the simple template and started. The challenge is to do 15 minutes a day for the summer and at the end you will have 25 hours of time invested in whatever area it is you choose to focus. Maybe I am over zealous..I printed out two. (And i have another goal besides.) The first two I am using the template.

1. Hone my painting skills...Here is my current project-spent some time on it this week :). I began a few weeks back when my friend Danielle and I spent the afternoon together. It really represents this summer to me: My ultimate goal is to have a life giving story to those around me.

2. Take steps toward teaching/coaching dreams. Besides saving up for Financial Peace Coaching.. I'm not entirely sure what this looks like, except spending 15 minutes everyday building into it somehow. yesterday I brainstormed. I thought i had four goals and then when I brainstormed I realized that two of them were actually one..The saving up (not using the template for this part) and the building up of skills/teaching resources are for one goal.

3. Go from couch to 5k. (there's an app for that.) Did one day so far and I think I have a friend joining me. The way it's set up is to train only three days a week. Sure did beat the seven minutes a day working out in my room. :). Glorious outdoors.

Do you have any goals for the summer? What do you love about summer time?
Week #43. Gratitude Challenge.

The Dad of all dads.

I was out mowing the lawn and thinking about the Orlando tragedy as it related to the heart of God. Wow. Devastation. Our Dad- his heart aching for every one of His children on all sides of the story.
I thought about the reality that if our hearts don't break when people's are lost- no matter who they are or where they are or what the circumstance-we have become calloused. I know my heart has been calloused. I see it flash across the screen-an article, a video..another day, another tragedy. If it's not "my people" or "my neighborhood" or directly connected to me- I see it, and I move on. Untouched. Unaffected.
Not the Father. His heart aches. His heart beats..to see each and everyone of His kids reconciled to his heart. Desiring that each one would know their identity as He originally designed them-created in His image. he cries out "don't sell yourself short. Don't buy the lies. Come to Me- I have the rest your soul longs for." He longs for each one to know how valued and treasured they are-how forgiven and wanted...What a Father. What a Friend. What a King.
A Father who gave up His only Son, in order that we might be reconciled to Him. Teach my heart to ache with yours Daddy God. Teach me to love like you love. To see with Your eyes. To hear with your ears. To believe all things. To hope all things. To endure all things.
What a Dad. Do you know Him?

What is in your treasure box?

Stuff is pretty much just that- stuff...so when it comes to this week's topic of "my favorite possession" I wanted to react and say "but I don't have one." In reality however, that is not true because I do have some possessions that I am quite sentimental about.
The first is my Bible. It's currently falling apart at the hinges and is in desperate need of a recovering..I've started to look into how to make that happen. I'm not sure how long I've had this one- maybe since 2011? I got it because my last one I gave away to someone on the street in Denver. Every time I get a new Bible it's like getting a set of fresh eyes for my heart. Words come off the pages differently- I have to read more thoroughly to rediscover my favorite passages and thereby discover new favorites. We are absolutely and totally blessed beyond measure to have the freedom and capability to own our own Bibles-and most of us, more than one. I still have my Great Grandma's Bible as well. It's not the one she wrote in so it's not so sentimental-but neat to have none the less.
My other possession that I treasure is a simple box of note cards. A couple of years ago my Gramma gave me this box-a box I had gifted her who knows how may years back. In this box she had filled all of the cards with words of wisdom, poetry, scriptures, quotes...in reading them I saw so many of the principles I was raised by penned down in ink. Gramma lives them- so then so does Dad- and then so I hope- I do too.
I also wear two rings that haven't come off since I received them. One, a ring of promise. A promise to stay pure for my future mate. I've worn it much longer than I ever would have dreamed when it first was put on 19 years ago or so. The other is a gift from my sweet Nicaraguan family. I haven't seen them in 9 years now. My little sister Carlita is going to medical school, I hope to get down there soon and see them, as well as so many other dear people.
Valued possessions are less about what they are worth and more about what they are in light of your life and how they add to it's meaning and purpose.

Hobbies and the pursuit of perfecting...

When does something cease being a hobby and turn into a craft (where you are an amateur, moving from doing something for strictly pleasure and it becoming something that you need to invest more time an energy into to rise above your current limitations) and then turn into a true work of professional art (in which case you could be considered a professional at what you do and get paid for it)? Welcome to the things my brain thinks about. I was having a conversation with a friend about this very topic just last week. I really enjoy learning new things, I know a little about a lot of different areas, but none of which I pursue to the degree that I would consider myself an artist to the fullest extent of the word.
Areas in which I would consider myself an amateur, well there are a couple....crocheting and sign language...I've invested enough time and energy into both that they have to some degree benefited others and required some discipline.
The ones that hoover between a hobby and a craft would consist of activities such as painting, spanish and cooking. I'd say these are three areas in which I am actively pursuing continued growth but would not consider myself to have half learned. But will I do diligence enough to bring them beyond the point of hobby? This remains to be seen.
As far as hobbies go...how about gardening? I'm not even sure I'd consider myself at a craft point in this because while I enjoy it, I feel as though I actually know very little and I don't invest that much time into knowing more.
Are you the sort of person that discovers something new and sticks with it until you perfect it, or are you more of a dabbler? I am pretty sure I am a dabbler. Maybe it's the learner in me that likes to have a little bit of knowledge about a lot of different things and to put all of my time and energy into one thing solely is not my cup of tea. (I actually like a lot of variety when it comes to tea too.)
There is a certain amount of discipline required in becoming a true artist in what you do...and perhaps  at certain points is it valuable to take a hobby and discipline yourself to perfect it for the sake of growing character? While in most instances allowing a hobby to remain just that-a hobby... or do we need to pursue some of the things in our life that right now are "just a hobby" and actually turn them into something that could change the world..
Has God created some people to zone in on one or two areas and become experts and some of us just to do a little of this and that? Or are we all designed to be experts in an area or two? I guess in asking that questions I realize that we chop up our lives into categories so easily between work and play, hobbies or professions. If it's fun- it can't be work. And if it's not fun - it can't be play. Hobbies usually seem to fall into the play category...but what if that hobby could be work and it could remain fun?
Feel free to weigh in on your thoughts as these are mine on this weeks topic of "hobbies" and they are far from complete...I love to ponder and sometimes resist sharing until I have my thoughts all sorted through, but in reality it's more enjoyable to put it out there and allow others to give their input.

Walking with a limp.

Accomplishments...great and small are all great in the moment when you have just learned and overcome.
Once, long ago...riding a bike was a great accomplishment.
Then, graduating high school...moving across the country...buying my own car...learning to cook...
Funny how accomplishments work like that. This past week the topic was "what is your greatest accomplishment." So I thought and I thought and considered how it seems I spend an good deal of these times looking backward for these blogs-sometimes a long time back, sometimes just a little-but a majority of these gratitude posts are reflective. I supposed it makes sense, it's hard to spend a lot of time being thankful for things that have yet to be.
And other interesting thing is that what qualifies as "great" is entirely subjective. I suppose that is freeing when it comes to choosing something that I think in my own life has been a particularly surmounting feat. And with that, I'd have to say that for me one of the biggest accomplishments of my life was saying yes to leading overseas teams.
Believe it or not, it was not on my list of to dos. I loved going overseas, but I didn't want to be in charge of the team-coming along side someone else sounded much more like me...until the Lord started talking to me about "coming along side Him" and then I had to face my own fear of failing miserably. I think it's fear of failing that keeps us from pursuing a lot of things. We set up our limits of what we are capable of in our own eyes and we miss out on beautiful opportunity-where we may fall flat on our face- yes, someone may, in fact, see our humanness and short comings.
Well, anyway. I didn't just lead one team with Jesus. We did it three times...and that I'd say is quite an accomplishment, something from which I have not quite recovered- perhaps this is my limp like Jacob becoming Israel and I shall walk with it always to remind me that I can not do life on my own. And perhaps discovering that I can not do life on my own strength is actually the biggest accomplishment of all...

Musing of an American Girl.

According the Merriam-Webster a heritage is as follows: 

1. property that descends to an heir

2.   something transmitted by or acquired from a predecessor :  legacy,  inheritance

       tradition

3.  something possessed as a result of one's natural situation or birth :  birthright 

I have a lot of different types of heritage. I have first of all my inheritance from my heavenly Father and the Holy Spirit as a seal of proof of that inheritance to come. I have also a Finnish heritage which I shared a bit of in this post on something I took for granted.  And then I have an American heritage. All of these things impact the decisions I make, and the things that I don't even think about. 

We are currently full of political turmoil and an upside down justice system because of the decision as a nation to turn away from God. Yes, folks..that's actually why we are facing what we are facing. However we still have a heritage that is rich, and can continue to make an impact- if we let it. DOn't lose heart. Regardless of what comes- my hope is secure in the Lord Jesus Christ. I care about my nation; it has been a gift and as I have travelled the globe I realize how blessed we are and most of the time we are, as a nation, utterly ignorant of what we carry as in inheritance. Do you know what we have here?? 

America is a land called to lead in the rescue of the broken... (check out this post on The Statue of Liberty ) 

America is called to forge new and uncharted territory.

America is meant to be a safe haven

America is a land for brand new beginnings

America, America

God shed His grace on thee

And crown thy good with brotherhood

From sea to shining sea. 

Without the Lord,  we can not, as a nation, fulfill our calling. We forfeit our inheritance. 

Join me..God promises "if my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will heal their land." It's a conditional promise, but a promise none the less. 

Jesus bring us back to you. At the very roots of who we are as a people, apprehend our hearts with the truth once again. Remind us of the foundations of the Word of God. Cause us, the people of America to radically understand your love for us! May we be absolutely consumed by this love. Release a revelation of the glory and majesty of Jesus and pierce our hearts as the church of this nation with conviction. May we walk in Holy Fear of you. I pray for unity in the body as we walk in righteousness and humility. I pray we would be of one mind in Christ Jesus. Give us understanding of Your kingdom purposes. Release kingdom minded answers to national issues. Enable the body of Christ in America to stand for you in the midst of persecution. I ask that as we speak, we would speak the Words of Christ and that they would carry conviction so that people would be convicted of sin, righteousness and judgement.  Heal and set us free as a nation by the refreshing of Holy Spirit. Make every house in this nation a house of prayer. Amen.
                              *This prayer is an adaptation from a book by Mike Bickle in a section of praying for nations. 

Gratitude #37 What Music do YOU love?

All I can say is, tomorrow is already Thursday again?
Two posts in a row, lets do this. Last week's unwritten topic "Music I love"

There is a sweet spot in my heart for Steven Curtis Chapman's "Heaven in the Real World" album and an album called "Along the Road". Here is why...
I was in 7th Grade. Up to this point the music genre in my life was country, old country, church hymns..and some not sure what you would call it but people like Evie and such. My friend Molly bought me a Christmas gift- A Steven Curtis Chapman tape. (Yes, I had a tape player and I had to turn the tape over when it got to the end to play the other side). I brought it home and asked Dad if I could keep it. He read the lyrics and figured that they were decent even though it was sort of "rock and roll" ish....makes me smile to think of Steven Curtis Chapman as rock and roll.
Not too long later I went to Royal Ridges, I'm sure I've shared of that before- discovering that people loved Jesus and had fun. It was there I knew that if following Jesus could be like this then I was all in. My cabin counselor would wake us up every morning with Susan Ashton singing "Along the Road" and it hit this spot in my heart that will never be the same.

I was actually listening to a podcast today regarding culture connections and the psychological connection people have with music- generally the music we listen to during those formative years of our lives we deem as "the best music". Apparently this doesn't happen later in life and hence the reason those who grow up in the 60s..love the 60s, the 80s, and so forth..I thought that was kind of fascinating and thought about the music that I hold dear. I'm really thankful that in the forming years of life I did choose (and was allowed to listen to) Christian music- it had a profound impact on my life. I often wake up with song lyrics in my head- usually newer stuff, but it's kind of fun when an oldie pops in and I just hum along to the tune playing out in my brain.

I also happen to like this really old stuff by Jim Reeves- it's kinda cheesy but it reminds me of my childhood and Gramma's record player.

What music would you say "strikes a chord" and what are you currently enjoying right now? is it music that is speaking life over your mind?

"Mama said..."

Writer's block, spring fever, short hiatus...whatever it is, I've caught it.
Here comes Saturday already and I've not posted in two Thursdays. But let's break this new tradition and get back in to the groove with Five Things I'm thankful my mom told me...

1. "I'm glad you have lots of moms in your life."
               I think I was on my way out the door one time to go to Justin's or Brooke's or somewhere and talking about how one of their mom's was like my mom. I'm glad my mom had this perspective and was willing to 'share' and I'm sure having 'lots of moms' kept me out of trouble :).

2. "Put the sheets on with the nice side facing in"
               A rule I still don't generally follow because I don't really look at my sheets when I climb in, but the truth is- my mom did teach me a lot of important things in the practical realm. I moved out knowing how to clean a toilet, run a washing machine, change diapers, run a sewing machine, fry hamburger and much more.

3. "If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you- it's your's, if it doesn't, it never was."
               She told me this one time when a guy broke my heart, and then I inherited her sign that said it so I could be reminded when dreams seem to crumble. It has often been out in my room to remind me. Setting free is the hardest part. And trusting the Lord with the results...that's the other hard part.

4. "You need to set an example for your younger brothers and sisters."
               Well, maybe mom and dad both told me this one. A most aggravating statement at times, but it really did help me to learn to think my decisions through before I just did whatever I wanted because I learned early on that the choices I make affect other people.

5. I don't remember so much of the words exactly as much as the permission that I felt like I had to freely pack up my car and move across the country to experience a brand new life on my own. Thanks mom for encouraging me to spread my wings- it's led to a great adventure with God.

Love you, and Happy Mother's Day!

Reflecting on some old thoughts.

A few years back I posted this post: 12 Lessons I've Learned in Life . That was 2009. I didn't write my post last week. Carrie, we are losing steam. Last week's topic was "words of wisdom" so there are my 12 words of wisdom from 7 years back.  One, I would reword a bit..He's more than just a fixer; He's a Father- a good good father.  #8: It's not my job to fix people...but point them to the Father, who loves them in the midst of their brokenness.
I guess I am still learning to not try to fix people. I see things so black and white in a fuzzy, gray world. And really when some things ARE black and white but someone chooses to live in the gray anyway- all I can do is point to Him, invite them to hear the truth and pray...A LOT.  Because in case you weren't aware..prayer makes an incredible difference in the hearts and lives of people. This good Father lets us join in the conversation and His heart is moved with compassion when we pray. My favorite story of this is Abraham. Did you ever check out this old post? Also some 2009 wisdom.


What is a word of wisdom you hold onto that reminds you to live differently day by day?

Three tasty beef meals.

This weeks' topic invokes a lot of emotions in me. What was once just a necessity has become an opportunity for ministry and simultaneously a constant reminder that my body is not invincible.
Food.
So, as a way of being thankful I will share my top 3 current favorite simple go-to meals for me (Still love my substantial beef).

1. Stuffed Sweet Potato
  Ingredients: (multiply for more)
      1 Sweet Potato
      1 C. (or roughly) of cooked ground beef. I like to cook it with garlic, onions and the red spices-paprika, chili powder, cayanne and cummin. Throw in some salt. But you can flavor it as you wish.
      Sour Cream
      Grated Mozarella

      Directions: While browning the meat, throw your sweet potato in the oven. Once the Sweet Potato is cooked almost through, cut it open top it with the meet mixture and grated cheese.

     Enjoy with Sour Cream on top.


2. Stuffed Peppers
   Ingredients: Similar to above, just use a pepper-color of your choice, they all taste great.
      For the beef it is crucial to add the above spices or your meal will be kind of blah.
     Also have some salsa and tomatoes on hand.

    Directions: Cut your pepper in half, butter the edges and put in the oven greased edge down to cook. (about 375) while your beef is browning. Cook for 15 minutes, then pull out and stuff the pepper with ground beef and salsa, sprinkle with cheese and tomatoes. Pop it back in the oven, when the cheese is melted you can take it out.

     Enjoy with Salsa and sour cream


3. "Food bank" chili (feeds at least 4)- Best as a crockpot meal
     1 pound of cooked ground beef
     1 can of black beans
     1 can of pinto peans
     1 can of kidney beans
     1 can of beans of your choice
     1 can of corn
     1 small can of fire roasted chilis
     2 spoonfuls of salsa (preferably homemade)
      2-3 garlic cloves -diced
     1/2 an onion -diced
     Season generously with: chili powder, paprika, cumin, salt, and pepper.

Cook on a low temp all day or in a pot on the stove at medium temp (not sure how long that takes).

   Enjoy with corn bread, tortilla chips, or almond bread.
   Top with Sour Cream and Cheese and delight your taste buds.

Looking forward...

Event planner, coordinator, if we can dream it-it can happen. That's been me..my whole life. Until a year and a half ago...I lost sight of my ability to even want to try to create. It was sad. I felt like part of me was missing. I wondered if it ever would come back.
It was enough to look forward to getting out of bed, to be able to walk and to stand up in the shower for more than five minutes. I looked forward to the day when I would run again- and I have, a little. Those days are still coming. I look forward to full function. To the days when I can join someone in their home and eat whatever is put before me with no discouragement of feeling crummy.
Little by little I looked forward to new things- I looked forward to a garden- and succeeded. I looked forward to a bike to ride-and the day it was fixed up it was fantastic.
But more exciting- I am beginning to dream again, to look forward to things that are not yet in existence and to know they will come. When we call on Jesus- He answers and shows us great and mighty things we do not yet know. He is God of the future, and He likes to dream with us.
He actually designed me to look forward to events. It's part of the hospitality piece of my life that is returning slowly. Each month I gain a little and what fun it is to have the energy to pour out a little again. Fill up my cup Jesus to overflow into the saucer for others to drink.

What do you look forward to?
Gratitude #32

The real deal.

The first time my feet hit foreign soil (I can hardly count Canada) was in 2003.... we flew through the night, I was groggy and tired. It felt surreal, the humidity, the big flowers, the colorful houses, spanish everywhere, brick and stucco, taxis and food stands...
Welcome to Cancun, Mexico. The city that stole my heart for the latin culture forever.
I don't exactly know what it was that got me, perhaps the connection with a new and different place, perhaps the warm generosity of the people...but whatever the case, I am glad I got to experience the "real" Cancun. And now...three times over.
The Tacos are the best...you've got to try Tacos al Pastor...dripping with fresh pineapple, topped with cilantro and onions. Oh yum. It was Cancun that introduced me to my ridiculous love of Mexican food. These people can COOK!
They also know how to have a good time. The first trip down there Melissa, myself and a couple of the other girls slept on an upstairs deck and every night we fell asleep to the rhythm of some sort of fiesta. I was going to tell you a story about a baby shower but then I remembered that took place in Mexico City so I will have to save it for another time.
The parks are full of families, skate parks full of kids, the churches are vibrant, and Mercado 28...well, why don't you ask my pal Andy about that place? I think he spent more time there than anywhere else.
One extremely rainy afternoon we got ushered out of a theatre because the ceiling was falling in. (we got our money back) Another time I went to church in that same theatre. (I think it was the same one anyway).
There is nothing better than having the locals show you the ropes, point out the best places to get the best treats, show you how to not get ripped off while bargaining, and experiencing a few taxi rides- I recommend brushing up on your spanish, I love talking to the taxi drivers..they are a captive audience to chat with about Jesus..
The American zone? Well, the beaches down there are pretty beautiful, but I highly recommend that you get out and experience the true city.
That my friends is...this weeks challenge # 31: A city I am thankful to have visited.

Mentors...among those you know and those you don't, who speaks into your life?

Ronda Hilman

Elisabeth Elliot

Donna MacGowan

Joy Dawson

Four Women who have had a profound influence on my life. Elisabeth and Joy will never know their impact this side of heaven, probably. Ronda and Donna, I hope you do, both of you have been extra moms in my life as I have navigated the dicy waters of my teen life and into adult years. Thank you for speaking words of correction, asking hard questions, believing in me, praying, cheering me on and becoming my friends. 

Elisabeth Elliot wrote books that have built into me core values of endurance, commitment, kindness, faith and trust. Joy Dawson has written and spoken life giving words that have pointed me to a deeper place with my Lord Jesus. Her depth of passion for intercession and Fear of the Lord has set foundations in place in my life. 

I'm so thankful for each of them and their impact on my life.

Happy Easter. 

Silver becoming Gold.

"Make new friends, but keep the old. 

One is Silver and the other Gold."

Just a little truth from a childhood song. 

The longer I live the more I have recognized this truth. There are friends who have stood the test of time. We have weathered storms together, cried, laughed, prayed and seen many seasons. 

And then there are friends who have recently come into my life or I into theirs and we are in the process of building-memories and futures. It's what friendships are made of really. The days gone by and the dreams to come. 

Last night I was on Facetime with my friend Mary. And we were talking about how thankful we were for our friendship. She and I became friends after being on staff for several years together in YWAM. We were thrown together in the process of prepping for the Denver Circuit Riders School. She the registrar for the base and I the administrator for the school. Our desks were across the hall from one another so we would call each other on the phone and wave through this window as we chatted about whatever student was applying or housing questions or anything that came up. We decided we should just hang out some evening and get to know each other. We had an enjoyable pizza dinner and then continued to wave at each other through the window. We had decided that the next time Circuit Riders came around we would like to actually do the school and not just make it happen.  

One year later we were laying in a bunk bed in California laughing because it had become a reality and we were in the LA School of the Circuit Rider. Our friendship got a lot deeper that summer as I battled through some hard circumstances and chose to be vulnerable with her and risk. I'm so thankful that I did. It's really what builds lasting friendships. 

We went camping with our friend Jacob, ministered on the streets together, laughed and cried and prayed for what was to come. Mary left Denver that following Spring and went to Northern Cali. I stayed on to lead the Around the World DTS. Through that year we began a tradition that still continues of praying for one another every monday. Thanks Mary for being my friend :). 

Want to join the Gratitude Challenge? Jump right into Week 29 with Carrie (the goldest of gold friends) and me. 

It has been one of those weeks where blogging just didn't happen.
I don't even remember what was going on last Thursday. I guess I was trying to get packed and such so Alli and I could go see our long time friends up in E-burg. We had a fantastic little road trip, pondered life and spent time catching up. There are some people in our lives that we don't see for ages and then we get together and it is like no time has passed. I appreciate those people.
In the midst of the weekend we lost my best friend's dad. We knew he was sick and that his body was giving out on him. It was hard to see him so sick. In honor of him I am pondering last weeks topic of "my past" and thinking of so many fond memories spent at Rick's house.
I spent at least some of almost every other weekend over at his house during my teen years. If it was Brooke's weekend to be there, I generally was too. Sometimes we would just be on his computer as soon as he got off- getting on the good ol' ALC chat room or MSN chat. Other times we were ordering pizza, hanging out in the living room playing charades, dancing in the kitchen, watching Top Gun (I still don't know what was so cool about that movie????...besides the sound track????), and loads of other teen moments.
One New Year's Brooke and I got back in the early hours of the morning and I parked my car in it's usual spot- backwards wheel to the curb on the wrong side of the street- just like I always did. After a late sleep I headed out to my car to discover, on my windshield, a parking ticket. Cop getting his quota in. Rick was so ticked he took the ticket and I am pretty sure called and complained about it- I guess my car looked like a drunk person came down the hill and parked, according to the cop. Well, sir, actually I always park there. sorry my back tire was a bit crooked. Rick wouldn't let me pay the fine, he said 'you always do that this is the dumbest ticket ever'. That's just the kind of extra dad he was in my life. :).
When I moved to Denver I didn't see him much because Brooke didn't live there any more when I came home. I just sent him my Christmas cards and newsletters. When I moved home it was fun to spend time with him again because we would hang out at Brooke and Jason's some sunday afternoons. After he was diagnosed I would stop by the house here and there just to hang out. One of my favorite times was dropping off pasties and Jackson was there building a plane. We chatted a bit and prayed and I think it was in that moment I realized how he had impacted my life.
Thanks Rick for being a great dad to my best friend and letting me be part of the family.

A spot I love to go.. Thankful Thursday Week 26.

Between the pages of a book,

Entangled in the story. 

Thought provoking statements 

Or tales of pain and glory.

It's in this place I love to be, 

The learner comes alive

and in me finds a a joy 

that causes me to thrive. 

My bookshelf testifies of my love for the land of reading. I'm a re-reader as well. I don't mind reading the same books over and over. I always discover something new. I think because each time I read a book I'm in a distinct place in life- fresh concepts jump out at me or make me connect to different experiences in my own life. I love when I am challenged to look at life in a varied light. Books give you a chance to look through the eyes of another person. 

Here are a few of my favorite quotes not intended to create a theology as they are only fragments of the thoughts of whole discourses and stories, but intended to make you think anyway: 

"It wasn't such a bad place to be. To be leveled. it might be the only place where my maker could make something of me." -Beth Webb Hart in Adelaide Piper

In all his purposes for the world, the creator allows time to help accomplish them...the best things are never arrive at in haste. God is in no hurry; his plans are never rushed. - Michael Phillips in the Secret of the Rose series. 

There are a number of things worse than dying- disobedience is one of them. -Elisabeth Elliot ( I don't remember which book)

And one from yesterday that really made me think: "Making disciples, as opposed to evangelism, is a journey of relationship that encompasses support, trial and error and difficulty." -Speaking of Jesus by Carl Medearis

Fiction or Nonfiction, I find my heart is challenged, encouraged, provoked, and molded. What we put into or minds shapes our hearts and ultimately it affects the overflow of our lives. It seems have blogged a lot about reading these days, but I think this post is why- it profoundly shapes the way I live life. So when it comes to being thankful-I am thankful for the ability to read. 

Until next time..adios. 

Seriously though...

This blog post is actually not an easy one for me to write. I realize I don't laugh that often. Taking life a little too seriously has always been a characteristic of me. Partly, I don't actually find things funny that a lot of people do-the crude jokes, off color movies, laughing at the expense of others. No, sorry, just not that funny.
I did laugh yesterday morning as I was driving along listening to Graham Cooke talking about our ability to hide in the Lord. Oh what a glorious picture. I did laugh, right out loud. The thought that when we hid in the Lord, the enemy just can't see us. We disappear off his radar. He can not torment us with lies and throw darts at us when we are hiding in Jesus. I pictured sitting there in my chair eating my oatmeal and I wondered..what would it look like if I just disappeared-poof-with my bowl of oatmeal. Now THAT'S what I call a quiet time! How fun is it that when we spend time soaking in the presence of the Lord, that we just go to that secret place, and it's really secret because only Jesus and me are allowed there. I grin at the thought and-yes, I laughed. And then...
Yesterday, Mindy came home with a gift from our sister Christy. in the package was a little sheep with a tag named Relation. If you saw the little stick figures that were going around on Facebook you may know where that one stemmed from. We had a good laugh.

My hippy little heart.

Last week I pondered how books had impacted my life and wound up going a little further back than I had anticipated in my library of life. This week I am going to continue in the book vein since the Gratitude challenge topic is "Being Married" and I already did blog a while back when the topic was "Spouse" regarding things I was thankful for regarding being single.
If you read my book review on the book The Meaning of Marriage, it wasn't the last book I read in the past year on the topic. Some of the best I have ever read. I grew up in the days of I Kissed Dating Goodbye. (No, not one of the best I ever read). The book took the high school age group by storm and we all threw traditional dating to the side and determined to surrender our love lives to God and wait for "the one".  In some ways for me this saved me heart ache, but in others ways it created it. Some of this had to do with not knowing proper boundaries for "just friends" and...well, long story short, I had my heart broken a few times because I hid my hopes in the ground and tried to ignore my heart.
Anyway, enough about that.
There are two other books that came across my path this previous year. Both I highly recommend. I found Lisa Anderson's Dating Manifesto highly amusing, and relatable. I connected a lot with her experiences in the un-dating world of "friendlationships". Ugh, those are awful. Just say what your intentions are..right?! It would save a lot of wading through murky waters. Risky. Yup.
The other book was The Sacred Search by Gary Thomas.
I feel like I have been having some of my thinking rewired, in the best of ways. Gary Thomas really unpacked the whole idea of "Just one" and caused me to have to evaluate what God's word reflects in this regard, only to be reminded once again of the beauty of the freewill He has given us to choose and how valuable those choices are in our lives.
 I was forced to ask myself some tough questions and reminded to risk and to keep being vulnerable. I have had this weird lie that I believe that if I ever was saying I'd like to get married or that I'd like to meet someone, get to know a specific guy, or anything in that way that some how I was being desperate and discontent. Sorry, but that's a lie I am done believing and I am glad to be away with it. Desperation is compromising on what you value and just settling for anybody even if they are not the best fit.
I'm really thankful for all the experiences I have had and the life I have lived. It doesn't mean I need to stay single forever. So, here is where I am... :) Single, learning to risk so here is to not being single forever.
My other single friends have all had me recommend The Sacred Search to them I think. Hahah. One of my cousin's recommended it to me. I'm so thankful! One of my favorite chapters was this list of different types of marriages, something that I had never really even considered. It opened my eyes to the reality that a lot of marriage conflict comes from two people having entirely different expectations for marriage but then never actually discussing them. My favorite description was "Bohemian buddies"-marked by travel, books, fulfilling vocations(in my heart this means the ability to impact through missions)...tie that with a "Spiritual Soul mate" and yes, that's what I had always thought would be the best, just had never put words to it. I'm not much of a Kids are Us or House and Home person-not that I don't like kids, because I do, and I want to have some-and adopt some....or that I don't want a house, because I do, so I can be hospitable. Those just aren't what I want to center married life around. It was just good for me to realize that it's ok if that isn't my number one priority. Anyway, there you have it..my hippy [unconventional] little heart. Know any awesome single Jesus loving man who might be a bit "bohemian"? :).
Until Next time....

Bookworm here, checking in.

Week #23 of the Gratitude Challenge...
When it comes to books I am kind of like a kid in a Candy Store. I'm not really into the sour ones or black licorice..but even those ones-I can say there is usually something to glean. Ok, maybe not licorice books (aka-nothing light or good or sweet in them, unless maybe its dutch) but the rest...
Sometimes I think particularly in the midst of a good story I would not even realize I was learning keys to life. That is always a sign of a good author when someone can weave in life lessons and keep you enthralled at the same time. It might be argued that some books are written purely for entertainment purposes and perhaps should have no deeper meaning at all. That's fine I suppose..but today I am thinking about ones I read from which I have learned..starting with the early days :).
I learned to read via book called Tom and Susan. This is Tom. See Tom run. Run Tom run.
The Berenstain bears taught me about sharing, friends, organizing, being prepared, and going to school..
Laura Ingalls Wilder taught me to love the "olden" days- her books kindled in me a pioneer spirit. I became familiar with the making of butter, the trapping of animals, not feeding taffy to pigs, what it was like to teach in a one room school house, scarlet fever, sod houses, early encounters with natives, the skinny little man who drank whey and grew so thin he blew away (his name escapes me), how to make maple syrup and maple syrup candy...I am not sure how many times I read her books. I first picked them up on my own in second grade and I can't remember if mom and dad had already read them all aloud to us at the point or if that came later.
The Mandie books taught me that it was exciting to have Cherokee blood, find runaways in your attic, look for buried treasure, find secret passageways and forgive, love your neighbor, and "When I am afraid I will put my trust in Thee O God".
There was a book that came into my possession that profoundly shaped me as a young girl called Falling off Cloud Nine and Other High Places. It was a devotional that I did around 12 or 13. When I was looking back in my journal I see a very distinct transition take place as I pondered the messages and read the scriptures and prayed for God to change my life.
I have read countless books that have impacted my life! In 2015 I kept a book list (here). Some I enjoyed more than others. I think all in some way taught me something. I'm so glad I learned to read. What are some of your recommendations? I already have a list of "I'd like to read at some point" books....and I always enjoy more to add to it!
Currently...I am reading:

Speaking of Jesus- Carl Medearis
Growing in Prayer- Mike Bickle
And..the books that has influenced my life the most: The Word of God. My Bible. It never gets old, it's worth being read over and over..and every time I get more insight. More wisdom. More Jesus. If you have yet to read it cover to cover..Over come Bible poverty by doing it. And at the same time..let it read you. you will never be the same. I promise.

Indoor Plumbing

Everyday, thoughtlessly we turn on water from a spigot in our bathroom, our kitchen, our laundry..and often we expect the water coming out to be hot. A toasty shower to cleanse our bodies, a quick flush to wash away our waste. Or perhaps it's just the convenience of throwing our clothes in a machine that swishes them around and takes off the dirt. We sure are blessed!

                                                                A camping situation...

This one..stay on the path at night or the watch dogs will attack. Plus, don't go out there alone...sometimes the lions get in the gate. 

                                                      The dish washing station in Kenya.

                                                                  A path to the Latrine...

          This is the way we wash our clothes, wash our clothes, wash our clothes...sing with me...

   In the bushes right over there I got bit by fire ants while....yeah ok. I'm really grateful for indoor plumbing.

What is something that you use on a daily basis that you are so thankful for?

Camping..the best "holiday"

What is your favorite holiday? Do you have one that just sticks out in your mind and brings warm fuzzy feeling when you ponder it? Is there one that you think takes the cake?
When I was a teen Memorial weekend was my favorite of favorites. it meant camping with friends or traveling to MN on a weekend road trip or other adventures. Then the last few years it was Labor day when I went camping with friends..so I guess I like camping?
I am thinking through the year and its so difficult to pick JUST ONE...but  I actually do think I still love those beginning and end caps of the summer.
Memorial weekend says "Summer is coming" and Labor day weekend says "Fall is coming"..my two favorite seasons (In most places.) Having the three day weekend or sometimes four...is enough to take a mini vacation and it usually involves BBQ and campfires.
Twice I took trips to Yellowstone with some good friends. A nine hour drive was a good enough "trip".  There is something about just getting away, leaving the day to day behind and going off the grid for a few days. We need to do that now and then. It's good for the head and good for the heart. I'm thankful we live in a land that has space and freedom to rest and recreate.
Short and sweet ...and not on Thursday..my Thankful "Thursday" posts. There you have it. A few thoughts on my favorite holiday.

"Thy Word Have I hid in my heart that I might not sin against thee..."

One of the first verses I ever learned..hence the King James verbiage :).
I've been in the book of Deuteronomy for a while. Every time I read the book I see a little more what David was talking about when He wrote the 119th Psalm. He loved the Law of the Lord. That wasn't the New Testament..that was Genesis to Deuteronomy...wow. Every page, filled with God's longing to have relationship with His people. And loving parameters to keep them in a place of awareness of His goodness, kindness and wonder.

I know when life starts going topsy tervy that I haven't been in the Word of God. It keeps me grounded and my heart okay. It keeps me aware of His goodness, kindness, awe, grace, glory, power, desire...It just keeps me aware of HIM. Is it like that for you? You know when you don't eat for a while and you get light headed and you lose your focus, energy, pace...that's what happens when I don't get in the Word.

It has been a busy week, in spite of taking some time away from facebook and internet over all my spirit is hungry for lack of the Word. So, for that I am keeping it short and going to finish up the book of Deuteronomy and head on into Joshua..which brings me to another favorite passage:

"Be strong and courageous, for you shall give this people possession of the land which I swore to their fathers to give them. Only be strong and very courageous; be careful to do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, so that you may have success wherever you go. This book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it; for then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have success. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:6-9 NASB

I'm so thankful for the freedom to own a Bible, the ability to memorize scripture, the power of the Word to transform our lives.
Good night.

Boredom can not exist for those who travel.

One of my favorite topics to talk about and I am getting it up late. Oops! It's been a busy week! Right now I am waiting for my pasty to heat up so I thought I'd take some time to write. (BTW, gluten free blend flour doesn't make that great of a pasty crust, next time I am trying an almond flour crust. but oh does the filling hit the spot!)
Anyway we are on week 19 of the gratitude challenge. If you are just getting on board for a read then you can check out some of my older posts to find out what it's all about...basically an opportunity to be thankful about things we don't often think to be thankful for in our lives.
This week the focus is TRAVEL! See why it's my favorite topic? I love to travel, it's so life giving! As kids we did a lot of traveling to see relatives, mostly via motor home, a few times in our van, and rare times- by plane. As I got older I would save up and go. From the time I was 17 I was flying at least once a year usually. Some teens spent their money on cars and movies; I spent mine on broadening my horizons....well, at least from west to east coast. THEN at 22 I went out of the country for the first time on a mission trip with YWAM- it rocked my world. I've never been the same. I'm pretty sure this past year and a half and the foreseeable future will be the longest span of time I've been state side since that year.

I love to travel because....

Relationships stay stronger even though we are far apart.
I get to see through different eyes.
Other cultures keep me grounded, recognizing that we do things different-not always better.
Travel helps me keep my priorities straight.
I have friends (and family) all over the globe.
Palm trees and glaciers don't exist in my neck of the woods. Neither does Kimball's ice cream.
Airports are fascinating.
People are too. Often..the ones you sit next to on the plane are quite interesting if you strike up a conversation. Once I sat next to some guy who was the author or playwright, or something like that, of the movie Dodgeball; it was his claim to fame. I had to tell him I never saw it. (And I never will.) At least I had heard of the title.


And because I have travelled I have...

....seen The Pont du gard, ridden the Hong Kong peak tramway, seen cathedrals in Europe, been Kiberia (2nd largest slum in the world), taught English in S. Korea, been on safari, slept on church floors..in stick huts...on the beach...in 5 star hotels, been on a boat in the Nile, experience the Mall of America, camped in Canada..and Yellowstone..and Ouray and in Lander WY, I've stayed in an Armory, ate on a roof top in Kathmandu, walked through the aftermath of the Haitian Earthquake, fed kids in South Africa, taken the train across Romania, prayed through the red light districts of Chang Mai, shared in churches all over the world, had my shoulder cried on by people with whom we had no language to share, proclaimed revival over London, danced with children in Mexico, held babies in Ecuador, put my toes in the indian ocean, shared the gospel beside idols in India, ridden on the other side of the road, taken tuktuks and rickshaws, eaten Korean BBQ, taken a limo in Florida, worshiped on the beach in CA, witnessed healing of a voice...pain...sickness...lame walking, walked a suspension bridge in Kenya, built a church in Mexico, viewed the Empire state building, climbed Mt. Monadnock, experienced life in Valdez, AK, ate silk bugs, picked up spanish, used internet cafes, been to a wedding of people I don't know, stayed up all night at a church Kesha, ridden a double decker bus, bartered in markets, bought food fresh from the locals, discovered the power of presence, ran through cornfields, been ice skating on lakes, eaten chicken on a stick, picked flowers in Uganda, eaten Ugali...
and I realize this list could go on and on and on...little memories are flashing through my mind as I write. Oh travel, how I delight in it. So thankful for all the opportunity the Lord has given me to go. Praying that soon again I will go beyond this nations boarders. In the mean time...those stateside, I'm looking forward to catching up with you!

2015 Book List.

I kept a list this year of all the books I read this year, it's been fun to keep track and actually see what I read. I read more novels this year than I have in recent years.  Here are my top 5:

1. A Day to Pick Your Own Cotton- Michael Phillips *****

2. The Meaning of Marriage- Timothy Keller *****
3. Hind's Feet in High Places-Hannah Hurnard (started in 2014) ****
4. Heaven's Wager- Ted Dekker ***

5. When Heaven Weeps - Ted Dekker ***

6. Thunder of Heaven - Ted Dekker ***

7. Wisdom Hunter- Randall Aurthur *****
8. The Sanctuary- Ted Dekker ****
9. Papa's Wife- Thyra Ferre Bjorn ***

10. Evidence of Mercy- Terri Blackstock ****

11. Justifiable Means- Terri Blackstock ****
12. The Wizard of Oz- L. Frank Baum *****
13. Presumption of Guilt-Terri Blackstock ****
14. Ulterior Motives- Terri Blackstock ****
15. Scary Close- Donald Miller *****
16. The Edge of Eternity- Randy Alcorn *****
17. Grace and Truth Paradox- Randy Alcorn *****
18. The Yada Yada Prayer Group Get's Down- Neta Jackson ***
19. Kiss- Ted Dekker *****
20. Steadfast Surrender- Nancy Moser ****
21. Heal Me, O Lord- Calvin Tadema ****
22. Crazy Love- Francis Chan *****
23. Burn- Ted Dekker *****
24. Bridge to Haven- Francine Rivers *****
25. Maid to Match-Deanne Gist **
26. The Measure of a Lady-Deanne Gist **
27. The Brushstroke Legacy- Lauraine Snelling ****
28. Saving Alice- David Lewis *****
29. Bendigo Shafter- Louis La'mour *****
30. Pursuit of God-A.W. Tozer ****
31. Forever Ruined for the Ordinary- Joy Dawson *****
32. Sacred Search -Gary Thomas ***** (I included this one though I still have a couple of chapters left, it's been one of the most challenging and interesting books I have read all year.) 

The **** are my personal rating, :) 

This list does not include countless audio books enjoyed in the evenings as I went to bed and at work cleaning. :) Recommended Authors: Eleanor H. Porter, Gene Straton Porter, Jane Austen, L.M. Montgomery

Lesson # 2015

2015 has felt like a year of "re"-learning.
Moving somewhere after being gone 7+ years means starting over. New doctors, new dentists, new friends, new home, new jobs, new vision, new focus. I've had to learn to give myself some patience because the transition just didn't happen over night. Thankfully it seems that I am reaching the other side. I am sure this is only to encounter new challenges, because life is full of learning until the end of our days.
A key piece for me during this past year has been discovering that amount of expectation I carried for myself, and even the perceived expectations of others. I've had to learn to lay them down as physically and emotionally it was impossible to fulfill all the expectations that were in my head. It is tough not to pick up more expectations as I go along and am establishing all of these new things...
I've learned that building new friendships in a new community takes a lot of energy and I have had to be okay with not having it happen very fast. In the last couple of months I have been thankful to have more energy to pour into relationship building.
I'm so glad that in the midst of this year the Lord promised to never leave me or forsake me, and going into 2016 is the same promise.
Have you taken time to reflect on what you learned in 2015? It's a tough question to answer because often we don't articulate what we have learned, it just gets tucked away in the recesses of our life and we pull it out and apply as needed when matters call for it.

Happy New Year!