Walking with a limp.

Accomplishments...great and small are all great in the moment when you have just learned and overcome.
Once, long ago...riding a bike was a great accomplishment.
Then, graduating high school...moving across the country...buying my own car...learning to cook...
Funny how accomplishments work like that. This past week the topic was "what is your greatest accomplishment." So I thought and I thought and considered how it seems I spend an good deal of these times looking backward for these blogs-sometimes a long time back, sometimes just a little-but a majority of these gratitude posts are reflective. I supposed it makes sense, it's hard to spend a lot of time being thankful for things that have yet to be.
And other interesting thing is that what qualifies as "great" is entirely subjective. I suppose that is freeing when it comes to choosing something that I think in my own life has been a particularly surmounting feat. And with that, I'd have to say that for me one of the biggest accomplishments of my life was saying yes to leading overseas teams.
Believe it or not, it was not on my list of to dos. I loved going overseas, but I didn't want to be in charge of the team-coming along side someone else sounded much more like me...until the Lord started talking to me about "coming along side Him" and then I had to face my own fear of failing miserably. I think it's fear of failing that keeps us from pursuing a lot of things. We set up our limits of what we are capable of in our own eyes and we miss out on beautiful opportunity-where we may fall flat on our face- yes, someone may, in fact, see our humanness and short comings.
Well, anyway. I didn't just lead one team with Jesus. We did it three times...and that I'd say is quite an accomplishment, something from which I have not quite recovered- perhaps this is my limp like Jacob becoming Israel and I shall walk with it always to remind me that I can not do life on my own. And perhaps discovering that I can not do life on my own strength is actually the biggest accomplishment of all...