Event planner, coordinator, if we can dream it-it can happen. That's been me..my whole life. Until a year and a half ago...I lost sight of my ability to even want to try to create. It was sad. I felt like part of me was missing. I wondered if it ever would come back.
It was enough to look forward to getting out of bed, to be able to walk and to stand up in the shower for more than five minutes. I looked forward to the day when I would run again- and I have, a little. Those days are still coming. I look forward to full function. To the days when I can join someone in their home and eat whatever is put before me with no discouragement of feeling crummy.
Little by little I looked forward to new things- I looked forward to a garden- and succeeded. I looked forward to a bike to ride-and the day it was fixed up it was fantastic.
But more exciting- I am beginning to dream again, to look forward to things that are not yet in existence and to know they will come. When we call on Jesus- He answers and shows us great and mighty things we do not yet know. He is God of the future, and He likes to dream with us.
He actually designed me to look forward to events. It's part of the hospitality piece of my life that is returning slowly. Each month I gain a little and what fun it is to have the energy to pour out a little again. Fill up my cup Jesus to overflow into the saucer for others to drink.
What do you look forward to?
Gratitude #32
2 comments:
Carmen,
I'm so glad to hear that your energy is gradually returning. This season of pulling back will not be wasted. And when you're back to full function you'll be a different and stronger person with more to offer than what you had before. Your gift set will be enhanced by new ways of seeing and thinking that weren't possible previously. I can't wait to watch!
Press on, friend!
the other Carmen :)
Hello from Germany! I love what you wrote. I am looking forward to summer ice cream and book-reading :)
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