The long road home.

Week 52. A year ago we began, Carrie and I, on this journey of being thankful each week for something not often thought about in our lives. Did it change me? I suppose in some subtle ways it did. I feel changed from one year ago, I don't know that this blogging challenge was necessarily what has brought about change-or even whether it's even been a very large catalyst for change. However, I would say that it was beneficial for me to pull me through the season of mild depression I was in a year ago. Thankfulness does that, it really changes your perspective. I try to be thankful more often than just on Thursdays.
There are some things I have learned on this journey though....
Sometimes I don't want to write.
Sometimes I don't want to think about the topic in front of me.
Both are an excellent exercise of pressing and choosing. Sometimes..you do things even when you just don't feel like it.
My life became busier over the last six months and writing became less of a priority. But that was ok. The reason I kept blogging was to stay vulnerable in some way and not shut down to the entire world My life began to fill back up with people with which I could reestablish vulnerability and I suppose present people are a better platform than a blog.
The early posts of my blog I put much thought into, I'd ponder the topic all week and then write. As the challenge became more routine I didn't chew on the topic for nearly as long.
I do think this challenge was about intentionality. It's difficult to be intentional about something for an entire year. Particularly when you feel like the goal was accomplished midway (vulnerability). But it was about the only thing I had going on in my life that I'd committed to do because I was in such a season of rest and saying no.
A totally different season has come and I'm having to say no, but for entirely an different reason. To keep my heart in a place of rest- yes..but also to not over commit.
I love the Fall because it's always a time for new beginnings. If you haven't already done so, take some time and ask the Lord-what does the Fall look like for you and me Jesus? Am I in a place where I am abiding or am I in a place where I am so busy that my heart is restless and I don't know what to focus on? If you find yourself in the second...lean in. Say no to some of the good things so you can say yes to the great things...
I am going to keep this blog up. It is more of a "good" thing than a "great" thing. So it may be dormant for a while as my heart has been learning how to come home. Thanks for taking time to go on this journey with me.